LoversandFriends~ Damn. For one time in my life I think I finally understand some shit people have told me in the past. Friends with benefits? Last year, those words were like angels singing in my ear. Sex? Sex without an official connection? Better yet, Sex without a connection, with someone u don't mind being around? Shit sounds lovely as hell don't it? And I must admit, it was lovely. But now, it's like what I was saying before, the feelins u catch after sexin someone for a good amount of time is bound to hit at least one of the people at sometime. It just happened to hit me first. Now, no matter how hard I try to fight it, it won't stop. By this time, we've been fuckin wit each other since like march or april (wit a lil break over the summer). Now i got my niggas like "u still fuckin wit her? Y the fuck arn't yall just together?" What the fuck can I say but "I don't know, friends wit benefits deal" "well, as long as u two have been fuckin wit each other, yall need to renegotiate that contract." Fucked around and left her picture in my room when my moms came by, now she's always askin about her. Shit is really gettin out of control, and something has to be done. The question is what. Should I keep fuckin wit her and ignore my feelings? Tell her how I feel and let her decide? Just cut the shit off and be friends? Or just cut shit off all together? The only problem wit the last one is the fact that I don't burn bridges. Everyone in my life is there for a reason, and if I didn't like them, then they wouldn't be in my life in the first place. To make matters worse, it's exam time and I've been cooped up in this damn library for like 2 days strait, and it's driving me crazy. I got 4 of them and starting wednesday, I got one exam a day until saturday. I feel like I'm in some kind of educational drill camp. Read this, remember that, jot this down, look that up...it doesn't end. I just want the madness in my life to take the backseat for a few weeks. :-