Say it with me...Ass...Hole~ That's what I am after what I did on Saturday night. Here's the story. I was supposed to work all day, but the day before, one of my co-workers offered to take the first half of my shift, I wasn't gonna agree until another co-worker came up and wanted to take the second half. So, I'm sitting there thinking "Damn, a Saturday off? I havent' had a Saturday off in months. I can go to happy hour at chicho's and enjoy myself for once." Well, it seemed like a good idea at the time. Fast forward half a 40 oz, and 7 drinks later and you have a pissy drunk Calvin, who ends up on the floor after fighting sharron for her cell phone. Why was I trying to get her cell phone, I don't know, and I really don't care, all I know is that it was probably for no reason and I ended up on the floor. Then I remember Calling boston and Cristin and cussing at them because they didn't want to come. Why did I cuss them out, I don't know and I don't care, although I do know that I wasn't really mad at them, but I did go over the top in my exagerations. Then I remember Chris dragging me to the subway next door where I see Bella sitting there wit her friend. I precede to yell at her about not calling me and I piss her as well as myself off in the process. Why did I do this, why didn't I just stay in the bar and mind my own? I don't know, and I don't care. Later that night me, chris, ryan and Candace, went to Kia's house to play cards and I preceded to threaten her roommate and her boyfriend because I thought they were somebody else in my drunken stupor. Why did I do this, why didn't I just sit back and relax like a good boy? I don't know and I don't care. All I do know is this, I know that not many people that I know will see this writing, but I feel like it's necessary to publicy apologize for my actions, so with that said: I'm sorry sharron for trying to steal your phone, I deserved falling on the floor; I'm sorry boston and cristin for interupting your QT and yelling at you guys; I'm sorry Kia's roommate and her boyfriend for yelling at the two of you, and last but not least, I'm sorry Bella for losing my temper in the subway. I've been spending the better half of the last few days wondering how I could let myself get that way. In a way I guess some of the things I said were true, like what I said to Bella, (I really was kinda mad that she hadn't been calling me) but, I could have addressed the situation in a more civilized manor. Either way, I lost my normal cool demeanor and no word can describe my actions more than...Ass...hole.

I guess I should also add that there is someone else I'm tryin to fuck wit now since I'm finally starting to get over Bellz (or at least that's what I insist on telling myself). I just can't figure out if I'm tryin to fuck wit her cause I really like her, or if she's just someone I'm using to get over my ghost. Rebounds usually end pretty fast, so I guess I'll know in a few weeks whats really good. Hopefully she won't see the asshold calvin like everyone did this weekend. *shake head wit a frown* I'm out.