Edjoomacashon~ I'm finally back at school now, and as ready as I was to come back and see my friends, I'm just as not ready to hit the books. I'm in my junior year now, and as I look back, I've noticed that time has flown by. I only have this year and next year to get my shyt together before I graduate. I have to make my connects now, so I can get a decent job, I have to start getting internships so I can have something other than "Golden Corral" and "Red Lobster" to put on my Resume. I'm taking 17 credits worth of work again. One credit short of the max. My GPA is at 2.4 or somethin like that, and in order for me to be accepted into my education program, I have to have a minumum of 2.75. So I basically have this semester to get my shyt up or I'm gonna be in some deep shyt. I'm confused and I'm scared of what might happen if I fuck up this year. Shyt is really getting real and I'm trying to stay focused, but it's so hard. College is a trip. I have the options of Studying and doing homework, or chillin with a girl and getting some ass. I can study spanish or anatomy. Which would YOU choose. I need to cut back on all the weed smoking too before I end up digging myself into a deeper hole. On top of all that, I'm the kind of nigga that doesn't really get all into the whole "find a girl to fuck and toss her away" type of shyt. I'm more into the "find a girl, chill wit her and see where it goes type of shyt." And I'm mad shy, so I'm still scared that if I don't find my future wife here, I'm a be lonely for the rest of my life, but at the same time, I want to bang everything that walks too. Two conflicting thoughts and personalities in my head clashing with all the other stuff going on wit me isn't making shyt any easier. I guess I need to sort out my priorities and do things that way. Other than that, shyt is going pretty good now, and I love living in a space bigger than a closet like my room was last year. I just need to get my mind right, this is war, and I need to get ready for battle. Holla.