~Happy Fuckin Birthday to Me~ Yeah, I'm a lil late but who cares. It's been a good three or four months since I last wrote, so I figured, what the hell, let me update my page again. Hmmmm, what has happened since June. Well, niggas have been making madd music. I like to listen to the tracks I made when I first started a lot, and compare them to the one's that I make now, and it's a drastic difference. I'm not gonna say i'm the best of the best, but compared to when I started, I'm damn good. But that's not interesting. I know whoever is reading this don't really want to hear about my music ambitions, yall scandalous muthafuckas wanna hear about the dirt, the grimy shit, the crazy shit I've been involved in since the last time I wrote. Well I hate to dissapoint yall but, I've calmed down a lot. Yeah, every now and then, I hit up the bar and get a lil drunk, but once I leave the bar, that's it. I ain't been fuckin wit the chicks like I used to. I'm tired of puttin in work to fuck wit these ho's just so I can find out they on some other shit. So I can find out they on some other shit! (my real niggas feel me) I might get a number or somethin every now and then, but when I talk to these chicks, they ain't about nothin. Half the girls I meet are on that little girl shit, and I'm on some grown man shit, so it don't work out from the jump. I don't even bother tryin to fuck em cause I don't feel like dealin wit that syndrome. You know what I'm talkin about...that crrazzy derrangged syndrome girls like to come down wit if u dick em down too good too fast. Then I don't feel like catchin feelins for another chick, if she ain't feelin the same way about me. I've been down that road before, and I ain't tryin to make a u-turn. What's crazy is, some of the girls I've known for a minute are the ones I wanna get at, but when you know girls for a while, they don't wanna fuck wit you. That's one thing I don't understand. They say it's weird, but I say, how can fuckin wit me be weird, but fuckin wit a nigga you just met two weeks ago not be weird. At least wit me you know what your gonna get. It's only weird when you lead up to that pivitol moment. You know what I'm talkin about. It's not the kiss itself that's weird, it's those few precious seconds before your lips touch. It's not the sex itself that's weird, it's the few drawn out minutes before, when your undressing each other. And it's the fear that things will change after it's all said and done. I guess that's the biggest fear people have when it comes to fuckin wit someone they know, the change in relations. When you fuck wit someone you've only met for two weeks, it doesn't matter if you ditch him/her afterwards, cause there was no time to build a bond. (I'm typing this as I'm thinkin it, I'm actually having a revelation as your reading this) So you say fuck it. Fuck that bitch, or fuck that nigga. But if you fuck wit someone you've known for a while, it's like a roll of the dice. Things could work out, but (there's always that but) but, what happens if things don't work out. What if you find out the sex sucks? Or What happens if you find out the person is too clingy after they beat? Or worse, what happens if they on some other shit and you ain't have a clue. Now you gotta break off the sexual relations wit that person, without sacrificing the friendship that you had before, that is if you still want the relationship that you had before. Sex is a powerful thing, I can't say that enough. Sex'll drive a nigga crazy if he don't get it, and drive a chick crazy if she does get it. It's an hour long (give or take) act that can turn best friends to strangers or vice versa. Sex can start a life or cause the end of one. It can single handedly save the world or destroy it. Sex is what sells. Sex is money in the wrong hands. Sex can cause someone to commit suicide because they don't get it, because they suck at it, because they're too good at it, or because it leaves some people feeling extremely empty inside. Sex can cause someone's day to go from the worst to the best (just look at the swagger in a niggas walk after he gets some) Sex can cause someone's day to go from good to bad (just ask anyone how they felt when they knew they were gonna get some, just to find out at the last minute that it's not happening) The very act of sex itself is the connection of all your senses at the same time: touch...taste...smell...sight... sound. Sex is the single thing that every living thing on this planet has in common (whether that thing needs another or just needs itself is another story)
Simply put, sex is magic. White magic and Dark magic rolled into one, and even though the act of sex is overrated, it's consequences are not, if you understand what I'm sayin.
That's all I got to say, I had my lil epiphany. I snapped out of my zone, and I'm bout to go study or somethin. Yall be eazy.
Peace (Y)